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Friday, 28 March 2008


  • the memories are my lullaby but your curse. maybe you have forgotten those times we had- at the games, in the light of the sunset, at the parade- but they are the only things i see. they are the constant soundtrack of my movements. your hand touched this waist, your hand tangled in this hair, your eyes followed this smile. now its as if you never loved me, never associated words like beauty and grace and wonderful with me, never thought of me when you listened to certain songs. its as if every memory that i recall is a scant betrayal of reality, only a dream that i've wished up. [mine]

    i think maybe now you hate me. you won't talk to me, or even sit on the same damn couch as me. but you'll graffiti my car and be 'concerned' that i'm running barefoot. please finish this torture, i can't take it anymore. [mine]

    So it's safe to say we've been here before,
    heart torn out and down for the count
    and still coming back for more.
    It's time to say enough is enough,
    you would be so better off.
    You love him, but tough
    cause it's not coming back from him.
    You can't win. Stop expecting change,
    he's just a lost cause that you're waiting on.
    Take a look around,
    you could have anyone.
    So leave undeserving him. It only hurts at first.
    But then you will find someone to
    give you everything you want.
    Try not to go running back to him.
    [Saddest Girl Story, by The Starting Line]

Thursday, 20 March 2008

  • Open your eyes.

    Can't you see that I'm not who I pretend to be? Open your eyes. I'm so broken, so lost that I can't even find myself. You see a smile, I feel tears prickle at the back of my eyes. You hear laughter, but don't understand that it's completely forced. You say you're my best friend, but refuse to see what I need you to see. That I'm not okay. That I'm not fine. That I'm not any of those over-used cliches that we all use to pretend to the world that we're normal. My heart hasn't healed. I still count the days. You betrayed me, but I defend you with my own twisted logic. "You can't help who you love." No, but you can help who you hurt. And you hurt me, but can't see it, won't see it. Just because you deny that I'm dead inside doesn't mean you can feel my heartbeat.

Thursday, 28 February 2008

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